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♥ Wednesday, October 31, 2007 @ Wednesday, October 31, 2007
` Let’s have an emo entry for the day. Ms Rachel has been thinking a lot for the past two days. Thou she is perfectly aware that its pointless to think of it, but somehow, she is not able to control her brain. She saw a girl who is around her age, walking with her big tummy, living inside is the jem and world’s best creation between her n her love one. She just wondered… What if… how would her life be? If at that point of time, her stubbornness climbs over selfishness, how would her life be right now? If at that point of time, he is able to stand up and willing to hold me through all those obstacles, my perception of him will increase massively. At least show it, maybe things will not be that awful as it is right now. At times her mind goes… has he ever thought of the guilt and agony that she has been through? Why things often ended up so easily and be able to disappear and vanish into thin air, as if it has never ever been started. Are guy often that capricious? As long as they have found someone to be by their side, everything can be forgotten? Are they often only seeing things as what it is? Where is all the promises and responsibility they used to say? Is it all purely for entertaining as they are not able to visualize these situation happening? When it happened, where are all the responsibilities then? Why is it that they can jolly well pushing aside everything so easily? Why can’t they be more considerate, slowing down their pace and think.. What if it happens to me… what if it happens to someone in my family? If at that point of time, my sense of stubbornness and guiltiness climb over my irrational thoughts of selfishness, what would it be right now? If at that point of time, you showed me the meaning of being responsible, will things be better right now? I could not stop but kept wondering… maybe the ans will never be formed by any one of us. -went for a swim with old lady.. might be going for vertical maranton next sun!! hm...  ♥ Tuesday, October 30, 2007 @ Tuesday, October 30, 2007
` With the time now at 5.03pm, am here writing and occupying my time. I HAD FORGOTTEN TO BRING MY SPEC TO WORK… gez.. its bad when I have to face the com without my spec.. and for my dear cher!!! Am nt acting shi wen.. Mitng nini for dnr.. I suppose before I proceed to my class!! What a drag ya~~~ Oooo… lingling, manman, bingbing n me going to Cameron highland on upcoming November. With the approval of daddy~~ yippee… but… ling is still trying to arrange her schedule. Daddy going off for a short trip this week~~ old man will not be at home.. left old woman onli~~ One will not able to forget the ones they have loved deeply once before. Maybe I’ve managed to accomplish that, maybe I have not! I do not know why am I had such a strong feeling when I saw the photo. It just struck on me. Met lala, knew she misses me soo much!! Had a talk with her.. haha jux miz her so much~~ nini, our sweets is getting popular.. muhah~~ nini muz take care of urself oh!!! No $$ le am still going for good food and shopping!! *faint… ask nini ti support me she dun wan… darn… i have been thinking over certain things... Stupid moron ling nv call me back.. cuz of her i slept all the way from somerset to chao chu kang!! damn... so ps.. am so tiredddd Adios!!! ♥ Sunday, October 28, 2007 @ Sunday, October 28, 2007
` with regards upon what i have mentioned... yeah congrats me of being accepted, but i rejected the offer... 5yrs contract lei~~ soo long.... hai... darren sry to make u run for nth!! hahah~~  yeah.. baby n her bdae cake  my baby!!!!! Sooo.... gez.. i saw some photos... haiz..freak la!!!! not gd~~~ what exactly am i thinking... why for no reason i think of u ♥ Saturday, October 27, 2007 @ Saturday, October 27, 2007
` Updates!!!!!' first of all.. jian wei finally went for his field trip~ i wonder how this super clean freak gona to survive during the one week!! Darren gonna accompany me go tmr!! *yippeee.... Had my statistic exam this mor!! gez.. this is the first time i've actualli stayed in the room for sooo long!!!!!! did do everything but there still some i duno~~ anyway am done with it!!! Went to sengkang to but baby bdae cake.. as well as bought her otah and cookies.... yeah~~~ its her bdae!!! gona cele for her tmr!!! *bought lipgloss and nini, i found the sweeets.. i bought all flavour!!! *proud.. i shall share one box with u OOo went to crystal palace for dnr!! tadan... we went to courts.. daddy bought a new karoake system!! yahoo.... and then.... i secretly bought a mp4 under mr yip accounts.. lol~~~~ annnnnddd... daddy wanna buy flatscreen tv... yahoo~~~ he has the money so go ahead... meanss...... i will have a bigger tv for my playstation!!!! yehhhhhh muacks... gona put mask todae ♥ Friday, October 26, 2007 @ Friday, October 26, 2007
` Time check: 2.22PM Day check: Thursday Date check: 25 October 2007 Mood check: Sleepy With all the check things I have written.. yup am currently working and decided to blog for my today’s blog! Am feeling superb duper sleepy right now. Going for a short trip with nini early next yr.. planning in process, am checking for places to go and rate itself, who ask me to be so free!!! Gez… Tentatively, our plan will be around Northern part of Thailand or far away from the city area in Malaysia. She planned for Hong Kong, but this will not be a short trip for relaxation~~ that’s our main purpose for this trip!! Relax.. massage and chillz.. Mum says ok.. means I have to give her more $$$$ … huhur2.. but we be going to japan or hong kong.. that’s the long term plan… tripssss coolzz I can’t stop yawning.. *yawn here it goes again…Alright mitin her for a while for dnr before I rush for my tutorial…. Haiz… I had a nightmare yesterdae.. darn.. the dream was crap.. wad possession etc.. !!!!! Things flash back for no reason… hm.. anyway~~~ I got to know that Mr S is in a moody mood after I read through what he had written.. of cuz I feels sour deep inside.. but let it be! Please take care Mr S What do I want? Am I contended with what I have or am I just purely pursuing more things that I could carry upon my shoulder? I am happy with what I have, that’s for sure.. but there’s sth which I wanna it! Anyway with regards about my trip!! Yeahhhh am jux sooo excited upon it.. Any recommendation for us?? I saw someone when am in the train.. He looks damn familiar and I know who he is!!!!!! Adios~~ Date check: 26Oct 2007 Time check: 9.53pm Mood check: light clouds over certain area Cool… I received the email.. therefore I have decided to go for a shot this Sunday~~ yup.. just for fun!! Meaning… have to skip my kickboxing for this time~~ hurhur Had an argument with them yest!! Shall not elaborate.. don bother.. Door locked. No words spoken. Just be myself. Cracking my head with my statistic. Had dinner meeting with nini yest @ ajisan~~ me with my volcano ramen, she with her vegetable ramen~~ my dumpling for side and cutlet for hers!!! Afterwhich… ice creammmmmmm.. yumyum~~~ Met sam just now.. went to Thai express for dinner and proceed to ben’s & jerry~~ yumyum…. Bought my sweets!!! Cuz of this sweet that nini intro to me… we search the whole of IMM and knowing that THEY DO NOT HAVE!!! NOT EVEN GIANT… crap… angry… walk all the way with my heavy bag and her heels to Jurong entertainment and tadah~~ I found it…. muacks… Mugging for my exaammmm… adios ♥ Wednesday, October 24, 2007 @ Wednesday, October 24, 2007
` Cool.. finalli had my checkup done!!! Reach there around 7+.. take note is 7+.. cuz daddy send me there.. but my appointment is 820.. gez.. am like a walking zombie~~~ went for blood test etc.. hurhur they can't fins my veins.. and its sooo painful!!! i wanna complain of this particular guy who took my blood test.. "damn it.. can't you just have the courtesy to say that u going to poke me finger instead of me giving myself a shock" fuck its painful and now... blueblack.. damn u! The whole things lasted for a few hrs... shall nt elaborate den Took a cab and went to meet mummy.. and guess what's for my branch??? gez.. cannot eat due to checkup and all i have is chocolate milkshake, cheesestick and chocolate puff before i went for swwimming with mummy... woodlands swimming complex has changed so much.. coolllll.... love it... am tired... shall take a nap bef my old woman found out.. muacks.. adios ♥ Tuesday, October 23, 2007 @ Tuesday, October 23, 2007
` Color Personality Purple Purple is the color of spirituality. Purple personalities are always striving to be better than they consider themselves to be, both on a spiritual, emotional and a mental plane. Needing more knowledge, they become avid readers. Trying to become what they think they should be, they search their own lives and the lives of others to find the answers. The study of all religions make them feel as if they are accomplishing something bigger than themselves in life. A good theological discussion is right up their alley. Wanting to help as many souls as they can, they are more than willing to give you the benefit of their education. Trying to achieve perfection, they seem to struggle with themselves more than most because they tend to be so critical of themselves. The muted shades of purple can be religious zealots who know what God wants for themselves as well as everyone else. In their way of thinking, they are the ones put here to enforce religion for God. These people can be just a little frightening when they start searching for their holy grail. The deeper shades of purple show someone working hard to find inner peace and love not only of their fellow man and themselves but of a higher power who many consider God. Purple personalities make good friends because they always give first of themselves. Generally they do not ask much for themselves but some negative purples could be self martyred. This comes from the fact that when they do finally ask for something from a friend, they may do so in such a way as the person they are asking did not understand. When they do not receive the item, which they requested, they turn silent and think of themselves as the only one who works in the relationship, thereby becoming the martyrs they think themselves to be. Am really soo tired.. gez.. I could really fall asleep while typing, while emailing~~ listening to this particular song (played in my friendster).. I really love this song to the max.. superb meaningful, superb touching~~ Had a massage.. Airforce medical checkup will be tmr.. Gastric pain.. hurhur* stomach bloated due to the two doughnuts they bought from doughnut factory!!! Haiz.. have to hide from principal due to the colour of my hair.. think my colour getting brighter~~ haiyo how la~~ why isn’t the cafeteria in a dimmer light rather then having sooo many lights around! Gez… Snowy celebration her bdae this saturdae, yup going to buy cakes and cookies, etc for her!!! Having my fucked up tutorial on thur with my exam on sat! fuck la.. how to study~~~ daddy gave me n jie $$ due to the reason that he has struck lottery once again.. hoho meansss we are heading out to eat gd food again!!! Hurray Gez. Haven went to check out my dc price.. hm.. mummy been askin me how much is it.. I also duno!!! Win lottery but dun wanna sponsor my game!!! Irritating.. hoho.. meeting my darling riya soon soon…. Muacks* Snowy will be meeting spring on 24/nov 2007… yeah gona bring baobei go too!!! I saw something which I fancy… but itsss sooo ex…. Haiyo… how la!!!! I just wanan slp but have to get up bloddy early tmr too.. stupid checkup change from 9 to 820… argh.. Rachel signing out at this moment… ♥ Monday, October 22, 2007 @ Monday, October 22, 2007
` Blog for 22 Oct 2007. Life goes pretty well and somehow its on the track.. Rach lost track sometime back, after the major incident that had happened, her life gradually get back to the right path. Yeah it’s a long and tough route. Now, her bestie is facing the same issue. I will not ask her not to be sad, nor ask her to forget the ‘him’, cuz its impossible and memories will still be there regardless of what. All I wanna to tell her is that, “cry as much as u want, sob as much as u think is enough, but once your tears run dry, do remember that someone out there is crying cuz u cried, hurting deep in their heart cuz they can’t do anything to make u smile” U will meet that person eventually who will stand in front of you with an open arms and smile with tears, that the guy who belongs to u. *cheers* For my dear ones, friends come and go. If one day you realized that he/she is no longer as what it seems as before, do not fret cuz there’s a minority group who will stay as what they are no matter what. I am treasuring the friendship and sisterhood now. Admitting that I neglected them so much in the past, I have learnt my lesson. Having a boyfriend does not give any excuse of not accompanying your friend, both are equally important. It took long while for me to gather them back, no way am going to let them go as before. *winks* Life right now is so much fulfilling, packed with activities and programs. Rach MUST go for driving license. This lazy bum has been resting for 2yrs, mum been chasing her, sis been saying her, bing been showing off her license to her.. humph!! It will be my turn… soon? Muhahah~~ Nini and me wanan learn roller blading.. looking out for a responsible coach~~ Having massage tmr~ bz dae.. went to tamp and rush for class~ Daddy going to bring his workers to penang next week.. means~~ me, mum, sis gona shop till we drop.. muahah~~ --strongly recommended for steamboat lover.. if u loves spicy food, loves steamboat and loves beef like I do… roxy square is one of the recommendation.. *Thumps up Everything about u is something I hate to know. Since my hair is done.. next.. I need mp3 for future use.. thinking of not changing phone cuz it will be in no use in there, ds is on the way~~ have not check the market rate… *Can you hear the sound of wedding bells? Yup.. someone is getting married! Woot~~ Saw him once again.. ♥ Sunday, October 21, 2007 @ Sunday, October 21, 2007
` Woot.. i had my hair dyed... base brown, highlight blond and purple. hoho finally i had it done!!!! So tired after my kickboxing session~~~ ♥ Saturday, October 20, 2007 @ Saturday, October 20, 2007
`  Preparing to go out~~~  Bingbing n me~~~  Yup its we 3... WOke up vvv earli and headed to temple with mum~~ went for some praying and do some lots... This yr is nt a gd yr for any relationship or marriage.. but am born with a gd life and a gd job!!! yup tt is so impt to me right now. With a gd job, and earn more $$ in order for me to SPEND.. weet am gng to get DS~~~ woot... am gng to game as much as i want!! happi.... Went for shopping with the 3 ger.. saw a top that i like sooooooo much but nv buy!!!!! gex... price kinda steep but.. maybe i will go back again.. whhahah~~~~ priceed to vienen bdae... tok tok and chat chat and eat eat!!!!! bz bz dae with bz bz ppl.... chaos~~ ♥ Wednesday, October 17, 2007 @ Wednesday, October 17, 2007
` woot.. lesson is BORING~~~~ had a long talk with jian wei!! jex am mizzing him to bits.. he nv receive my msg n i nv recieve his.. haha.. he is someone whom i will always turn to regardless of wad!! nnn i promise to be his toking buddy every nitex... nnnn he hold me i mite even able to go for his pop.. wee~~~~ have to mit him soon.. so in the meantime.. have to help him tc of his sis!!!! tired!!!!!!!!!!!! am falling asleep.. mirgraine!! gezz~~ any doc around.. hungry till max.. had a miting session with my darling nini and proceed to find uncle j... yap.. mean old man loves to irritate ppl as usual~~~  me with my spec~~~ tired eyes!!!  my darling dun wann c the cam!!! *humph CHAO ♥ Tuesday, October 16, 2007 @ Tuesday, October 16, 2007
`   here we goes again~~ went to yaoyao bdae party yest, well well~~ shall not elaborate what has happend thou.... having bowling competition tmr, yeah cuz of me wanted to join (cuz its my dept afterall) we have been talking here n there!!! My whole week is jux so bloddy pack, thur having dnr at amara, but.... is leong bdae too.. HOW???? gex~~~ my hp bill gona bomb cuz of this person.. haiz... Days in the department has been extended.. therefore, will still be ard for 2 weeks or so, most pro after my medical checkup! Having sth on on sat.. but can't figure out what's that!!! hm... sun having my kickboxing... GEX am soo bz!!!! anddddd finalli gt to c my darling priya on mon!! yippz* its been so long since i had my last swim.. hm.. spending money is a leisure and happiness... cheers ♥ Sunday, October 14, 2007 @ Sunday, October 14, 2007
` Woot.. had a wonderful day SHOPPING.... bought 3 tops and sunglass!!!!!! wee~~~~~ love shopping.. TIRED~~~~~~ ♥ @ Sunday, October 14, 2007
` First of all i wanan to tell my bestie that.... .i will be here for u no matter what, just like how u did when i need u!!! i will get 1 rsaf guy for u.. but i will source out for myself in the meantime.. whahah... NExt.. nini.. take care of urself k.. we shall have our subway once u have recover Reach hm ard 3+am, woke up ard 10+.. cuz i can't really get into deep slp.. think cuz i have slp too late!!! Had sooo much fun and every1 take care of me.. esp my sam~~ saw royston while with sam.. haiz.. his friend iss sooo bitch!!!! darn it... my toenail break to half.. no wonder sooo pain CHANGE PHONE@@@... IPOD.... arghhh i wanna that.. and DS~~~ --**saw kai sheng** hahah... still the same Woot... went to eat waffle ice cream with mum and headed for our man bian (bee hoon).. mum surprised me when she said she wana make some tonic for me.. gez.. am strong!!! Suppose to meet khow ming tmr but i cxl it.. hoho!!!! Life at security has extended till further notice.. means.. IRENE WE CAN GO EAT DNR BEF WE GO SCH Rot at hm todae cuz ammm jux so tired and worn out.. I AM NOT GONA EAT PIZZA HUT AGAIN, SERVICE LOUSY!! MADE A COMPLAIN AND SOMEHOW I GOT A FREE PIZZA AT ANYTIME I WANT... SO WHAT??? DAMN i love the way my life is right now.. cheers to my mum ♥ @ Sunday, October 14, 2007
` http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/1120799 Quick take this test!!! ♥ Friday, October 05, 2007 @ Friday, October 05, 2007
` Been running to the loo umpteen times... gastric started.. fuck.. suppose to go kbox but was cxl.. humph!! found sth interesting... *yippe* Bought scented rose pack.. smell soo nice.. Things wil be delieved to him tmr.. hope he like it ♥ Thursday, October 04, 2007 @ Thursday, October 04, 2007
` Rach found out something which somehow she knew it long ago~~~ surprisely but kinda sweet... never expect.. I'm planning to organize a bowling outing~~ yupz!!!! in process thou... GOOD LORD I HAVE TO STUDY REAL HARD FOR MY SAT EXAM.. FUCK LA... cannot retake le.. no more money to spare!! After the exam.. am gona head to the place to do some personal stuff.. hAIZZZzzz Alright met my darlings just now, proceed to thai express and headed for our ice cream treat!!!!! met irene while in the train.. *happi for her*** gona burn midnight oil tonight.. damn it!!!! Irene promised to brainwash me till i have her thought.. haha~~~ Something happened to me today.. haiyozzz... like tt i can be a member of TTSH le~~~ I really gona miz the ppl dere.. looking for a brand new start!! as i promised, u gers future lies in my hand. whahha~~~ Labels: fainting ♥ Monday, October 01, 2007 @ Monday, October 01, 2007
`sianz GEZZZZZZZZZZZZZ... so mani things~~~ arghhhhh Am so lazy to elaborate What exactly am i feeling? hai.. feeling that he is no longer with me, but at times feel that i still have him... gd lord Labels: am sooo freaky confused |
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